held at crew... hmmm got loner, beverly, saigon, baipang, behappy, 11 and mar... 8pm to 2am....

got ppl ki siao... got ppl get drunk... got ppl sing... got ppl play games...

overall enjoyable...

will post pic on my actual day... keke... alot of present wor....

thanks all who came...

may i hope next year will have something similar...

and mei mei take good care of that zippo lighter hor....

my bday invite list tomorrow... pathetic...

loner (confirmed)
behappy (confirmed)
saigon (confirmed)
spatans (confirmed)
mar(tbc)
baipang (tbc)
wind(tbc)
11 (tbc)
beverly (not coming)
agnes (not coming)
david (not coming)
xbd (not coming)
zane (not coming)
admin (not coming)


sob sob....i so bo ren yuan....

found outside my home

how long can it live?

wat is the purpose?

and how long can i live?

and wat is my purpose?

dunno.

lol

i found someone on friendster.

she become prettier.

thats good.

saw her pics.

memories flash to me.

flood me...

like waves and waves of water.

dun ask me why still think?

i dunno.

i am imprefect.

jerk in fact.

best to remain as wat it is now

no point

both leading different types of life

happiness girl.

cheers.

for you.

the first 5 options for my new phone.... let me think the stuffs i want inside

1. chinese support
2. mms/sms
3. video recorder
4. video viewer for 3gp/mp4 files
5. mp3 ringtone (optional)
6. micro SD card included
7. bluetooth
8. connectivity with computer (cable or card reader)
9. earpiece (optional)
10. java game support
11. caller picture enabled

suggestions suggestions

which phone to buy huh?

a friend of mine got marriage problems... always like to find me confide one... lolz... actually all quite simple problems... maybe if u r in, u cant see properly, need outsiders to help u see... what really went wrong....

jia you my friend.

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wooo.... die liao...

last sunday was my chinese lunar birthday. sian

last friday after work, met up with loner to go to tanglin cc to meet uncle for his supposely last jamming there. reach there, beverly reach too. then we wait outside for uncle to come.

as we relacing outside, i smoking, uncle finally came in his van with that lead singer, uncle danny... lolz..

uncle told me outside the cc by right cannot smoke one... no wonder keep on got ppl looking at us... lolz...

then we went in together, relac, and let them perform.

beverly went try out the keyboards. i asked her play tong hua let loner sing.. woo.. not bad.. but i think the leader eyes on both of them like buay song... but i tiam tiam...

then they all play, mar reach... then we four sit there see them perform and mar, beverly and loner take turns to sing. keke i think i cant sing, just see there enjoy. me no mood to sing.

keke.. but then i think i should pick up my drum sticks and try again ba? i dunno see the drummer uncle.. wah lao... envy plus jealous. lolx

then the whole jamming session become senior citizens singing session. uncle face like not so happy. can see that. lolx.

then we left around 9 plus.

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sat went out with loner...

morning bring my bro to eat, then went to hougang plaza, the lan shop to go internet, just to solve that vt's puzzle. the answer i got when i reach home yesterday.

i know a bit bo liao but i cannot let it lying down... must solve fast. i know my angmo sucks but still ok mah...

then went kbox sing from 2pm til 7pm.

i tried singing duets in solo as in Shan Hu Hai and One Night in Beijing solo versions. Broke out in cold sweat when i tried these two songs. alot to chase as in the qi, and then the changing parts. need to be much better in order to do it. lolx.

then went to the block beside hougang plaza to have dinner. ordered hokkien mee, which i been bio-ing for a long long time... long time never eat...

then also pi dan. century egg. best with young ginger...

after that took 147 to crew.

raining a bit and weather bit cold.. on the way, called ming miao join us... in the he last min dun wan to come out... then i called limin she never pick up.. in the loner sms her then she reply... wah lao...

later she explain she left her phone charging thats why never see.

ok lah forgive her..

then we all played dai dee and drink and sing til 2plus...

in the halfway after one of our turn of singing a guy come and cheer with us... lolx... say our singing nicer... keke

and yeah... xbd made my friday evening felt so good saying my voice very nice...

is it i think so too.... lolx lolx

my aunt's husband passed away. think should called him yi chang. not really closed to him, but then he was a nice chap to me. :) RIP.

and about the tug of war yesterday. give me alot of thoughts on things. i kinda feel that it is like life. life, is already so tensed, like before the start of the pull, u need to pull a certain strength to get ready. and if u need to win in life, u need to pull harder, and be stronger. and then if the rope is too slippery and went away, depends on yourself, to see if you will wan to get up to grab it or let it go and lose.

if you let go and lose, dun regret, there is only this one chance for u to pull.

for me i stand up and pull again, even through i fall, i still stand up to pull. with all my strength never give up.

but will i be strong in life like how i pull the rope?

or will i let go when it get too tough to carry on?

dunno

reports of tug of war:

1st pull against team a win
2nd pull against team a lose
3rd pull against team a lose

therefore lose

then

4th pull against team b lose
5th pull against team b win
6th pull against team b lose

therefore lose

hence, fingers all injured, typing also pain, legs pain. sian

dun siao siao... got 50 odds dollars in that bottle...

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tug of war at 330pm... wish me luck

a tree fallen onto clementi road, and cause traffic on both sides stuck and cannot move. alot of buses cannot move. at least 40-50 buses are along clementi road towards clementi direction. 52, 61, 74, 75, 151, 154 and 184. along bt timah road also along the anak bukit i think towards clementi road.

start around 630pm and then until 8plus the traffic still stuck.

report in the news.

took some pics but dun turn out good.

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i burnt my right thumb with chemical jus now by accident....

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i clever bo? I am medi lah! lol

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her kl home kanna rob... damn those robbers...

dxo! went with bee, 11 and hamy. lolx... i dun really like the place and the music. i just really go with the flow. keke... we reach there around 9pm, went in like not much people. then we order a bottle of absolute vodka cost 108 bucks and a 42 bucks beer tower. lol. i love that beer tower so much that bee mei mei took so many pics of it and add comments on the beer tower. it was quite fun.





then we play pool. 2 games of it. won the first lost the second as i enter the stupid black ball. kuku me. nevermind...

later we play the froggie game.

1 frog
jumps
pong!

2 frogs
2 frogs
jump
jump
pong
pong

3 frogs
3 frogs
3 frogs
jump
jump
jump
pong
pong
pong

and so on...

me and 11 drink the most...

got alot of drinks... beside my beer and vodka still got free flow of drinks for the ladies.. think they 3 drink and drink like really dun need money...

then i was caught drinking ladies drink... while playing finger guessing game.

'yes sir, will u mind we go outside for a talk?'

'oops...'

then go out the bouncer and the waiter look at me and warn me about drinking ladies drink and kanna fine 20 bucks. :X

we danced, and drink thru out the night. after a while 3 girls friends of bee (joan, gloria and maria) joined us. haha i was like omg.. the only guy. we all 7 dance too... Rnb, i heard some linkin park vs jayz songs too.

i broke a glass too. and i think i am under the eyes of the bouncer which is just beside our table... ready to bash me out... keke...

hamy left, 11 left, then around 3, the rest of us left. then i send bee home as she is feeling not so well.

nearly vomit in the cab.. lucky never... endure til i reach....

my block void deck. :X

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then sat met up with the kt ppl, zane, admin, loner, agnetb, beverly, fruits, wind, baipang, mar, jong and griever for dinner at marina bay. we went chong pang.

baipang is a funny dude. haha learn from him, that he got a friend that squats in the middle of the zebra crossing to make the drivers tulan. lolx.

after dinner we went to clark quay coffeebean for kopi. we walked from the shenton way bus terminal to there. on the way, we chat and laugh at each other jokes.

i got a present from zane and admin. haha for my bday. damn funny.


the back


the front

then after that took cab home with loner, mar and baipang.

lets have a round two someday. with the garlic of coz.

went to dxo on friday with 11, hamy and behappy with her 3 ladies friends... should see me kanna so many problems there... lolx...

then sat went to marina bay with zane, admin, loner, jong, griever, beverly, baipang, agentb, fruits, mar and wind... got a present from zane.. haha... will post tomorrow..

and also happy birthday weilong! 28th! when u organising ur church wedding with xuling? been waiting and waiting...

to my behappy mei mei! cheer up! i am always here for u....

:P

see u tomorrow.... BIG ARROW!

LOLX

i tio arrowed. a big one. next week see how i die.

nothing ever goes well on me.

sign.

one fine day i decided to go online find out more about loveless... below is wat i found...


a loveless cafe


a loveless design


a singer named patty loveless


a type of knife named RW Loveless


a not so famous band named Loveless


a movie named Loveless


a comic named loveless

and finally a song with lyrics consist of loveless

SATURNUS - For your demons
(From the album "FOR THE LOVELESS LONELY NIGHTS")

Did you fall into that raven night
With sigh and woe and lonely path ?

This song is for the demons
That haunted you in those loveless lonely nights
And for the shadows that stained your soul
For the echoes of your loss
This song is for your forgiveness
For the sadness I knifed in your heart
For the road that lies ahead
With fear and hope, loss and salvation

Did you wake with a sigh and not a smile, did you ?
Did you hear the ravens woe in this exaulted night ?
This very night

This song is for the demons
That haunted me in those loveless lonely nights
And for the shadows that stained my soul
For the echoes of my loss
This song is for my forgiveness
For the sadness you knifed in my heart
For the road that lies ahead
With fear and hope, loss and salvation

me : i just watch lost

x : huh u lost your watch?

me : no lah the show lost

x : huh you lost your watch in cinema?

me : channel 5 lah

x : chey!

Comments:
Yo medi ... your HP sucks !!! hahahhahaa ...

thanks for dropping by with loner ... both of u very sporting ... :)

And the band is nothing great ... not even close to good ... kekeke ...

well, hope u guys do come by again ... we'll do something else ...

uncle reply in the comment box yesterday... yeah me know my hp sucky... i waiting for may to buy a new and better one... why may? as a bday present to myself and waiting for the progessive rewards as well... (well out of topic, today will like to talk about bands)

uncle ur band is considered not bad liao. know wat to play, but maybe the chemistry is not really there. the glue to glue each other together is not there. hmmm i dun wan to say who and who u know one. keke kinda of can see the band is split into two. :X

me went to jamming before. just once or twice. and then was audition. haha in the end i cannot really play. think got bit of phyco motor problems with the co ordinations of my drummings... and cannot follow the beats, must be my basics not really good. need a real good master. uncle u think that malay guy can teach bo? lolx...

then i think i kick myself out of the band. keke. i also never really note where the band had headed towards. maybe bit famous? maybe gone with the wind.

yeah, uncle if u want to make it big, make it big! i will support u one..

next time got jamming sessions let us know.. something else better? chinese songs for loner is it? lolx... and of course i will use a better hp cam to take the pics.

after work met up with loner went to find uncle spatans somewhere near toa payoh see him and his band jamming.... quite a nice experience...

it is always good to sing live as wat loner always told me. i believe it too. much better feel than singing in ktv or even pub. the real time music surrounding u, and people watching you. you are supposed to sing louder than the music. although can be adjustable, i mean the volume, but it is always nice to sing this way. i know why alot of men are into this.

band rocks... music make a man a real man.

i tried singing hootasbank the reason and righteous brothers unchained melody (rock version). my voice sucks big times, not opened up yet and due to too much smoke after i end work.

lolx...

then loner got to sing more songs than me i supposed. he is a born singer... unlike me... keke...

but that malay drummer uncle and the husky voice herman left a big impression in me.... and that drummer used to go to taiwan to try out his musicial career... impressive... keke...


uncle and loner


uncle and loner exchanging pointers


uncle guitar solo...

music make a man out of u.... join in the fun if u r interested.

this entry was written due to the chat with jules a few nights ago... she told me about her past medical history and then her visits to the specialists.... then i think it in my case... my past visit to the hospital... i was really so scare myself...

(i think i been too lost-show-influenced... like writing flashbacks.... )

to the sgh... somewhere 2 years back... when the unusual pains occured.... when i was digonse in hougang polyclinic about my conditions.... like bounary line case...

supposed to go for ultrasound, check for any kidney disfunction... blood test to see if there were non conformity inside my blood, flowing around.... a 24 hour urine test... to see if kidney is producing abnormal subtances that a normal human will produce....

the 24 hours test is not for fun... and the test i hated the most.... dun ask why... dun think u will want to know also.....

i think still got more... like poke the needle into your finger check ur blood sugar... blood pressure checks....

at first when i go... i dun expect so many things... the 24hour urine test i done at polyclinic before... but in sgh u need to redo everything.... coz the records are not transferable...

firstly the mood when i go there is like happy go lucky... dun think much... thinking all should be over soon....

but i saw the sick and death face on the patients there... that old man with the tube insert to his nose.... sitting on the wheelchair beside me.... around me, people with stone eyes looking in front of them.... like starng into space... me too... i began staring to space began to think....

i was freak... although i used to be a medic... but then i still scare of the place call hospital... i cannot imagine myself there... resting on bed and become a patient to let the docs and nurses do things on me...

I waited for my turn to see doc, she told me nothing much, perhaps here high there high but overall still ok... blah blah... i recommend to this specialist at the clinic next door.... blah blah blah....

i went there a few times then never go. i will not want to go there ever again... throw away the appointment cards... think i got 3 of them?

i so lonely there... nope i din tell my family that i went... perhaps only a few of my friends knows... but i dun wan anyone to see the fear i got in my face... scary... although i am a man... but which man dun fear death?

i wonder how many hoon ki i smoke when i am out of the compund....

haiz....

will i die there?

Can i have a hoon ki before i die? i envy contantine... he still can smoke before the satan wanna take his life....

*****

face of death is scary, and please do treasure ur life.....

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch: 10
Quality Time: 7
Receiving Gifts: 5
Acts of Service: 4
Words of Affirmation: 4

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.



Take the quiz

cold wind blows..... empty pockets.... skipped lunches... sian sian sian....

lolx...

think i short liao....

just now go to ivy's blog see... see she go eat hong kong mee...

haiz... how i wish now got a bowl of soupy maggi mee to eat... with egg on top...

lolx...

time to go home le ba...

now is 7.38pm signing off....

THE DRUNKARD SURVEY..


Name three kinds of liquour that you tried before..
* Alsolut Vodka
* Bombay Sapphire
* Martell


Name three kinds of Cocktails that you tired before...
* Loveless Concoction
* Tequila Pop
* Neat

Name three pubs that you went clubbing before...
* Crew
* Cosy
* Feng

What are the three actions u will do when ur Drunk??
* nonsense out of my mouth
* vomitted
* cannot walk straight

What would u do When ur sad and drunk??
* sms ppl
* sing songs... sad ones
* smoke and smoke

Name three of your fav mixer...
* lime
* lemon
* tonic

Name three of ur best drinking khakis..
* adolf
* agnes
* behappy

Do you have any liquour or beer in ur house?
* nope

Name some of them..
* no have at the most a couple of beers
* one small 75ml bottle of alsolut citron

When do u start drinking?
* 13

When do you start dating?
* 17

Is it u started drinking before you date?
* yep

Congrats your realli a HARDCORE DRUNKARD...You love to party and have fun.. especially when there are good friends around...But when ur feeling down, do try to limit yourself..as you tend to lose ur emotions after ur drunk..


Name three persons that you hope will do this survey
* 11!
* Agnes!
* bee!

*taken from kerin's blog*

met up with jules after work... went bedok try the zhu gan mee sua... not bad... near my poly buddy weilong home... keke went his place a few times dunno there got this famous stall... i say famous coz i see the stall holder someplace.... maybe in the papers....

the stall is called cheng ji... at blk 511 market along bedok north ave 2...

then one thing stupid... i was limping when i was crossing the (only way) overhead bridge to opposite to take bus...

hope it recover soon... or else i sian.

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at course... come out with this formula...

Problem = What you really wants - What you really have

agree?

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behappy mei getting ding hun on july... happy for her...

really suay things dun come once... sprain my left ankle on the way home... now still come to work in bandage.... sian....

went to kbox tpy with loner, van and shan... sing from 2-630... then dinner at mos... haha van treat coz she own me meals.... then loner also got free meal...

then go crew with adolf, loner and beverly... sing from 830 til 2am... happy singing... haha i felt my voice finally open in the last few songs....

then spend less than 40 in all the stuffs.... coz dinner and crew is free... lolx...

no money liao... now skipping lunches lately... haha... treat as jian fei... time to lose those fats liao.... too much is no good... haha.... few weeks back try asking someone return money she acknowledge then she put me offline in the msn... wtf...

never mind... she will get her retribution... i already got mine... lolx....

like that loh.....

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these 3 weeks... my lower back pain started specially when i lied down... doc last time suspected is kidney problems... last time already got.... but gone sgh check up, they said i nearly kanna but never... then after that the pain come and goes... when it comes i control my water intake... then will be better...

nowadays sleeping not so well. the pain will wake one up in the middle of the night for nothing.... like last night before 10 sleep... the pain wakes me up at 11 plus... then again at 3 plus... haha.... jialat... even last night at the so loud RC gathering below my place, mp talking in front and my mp3 player playing, i still can sleep.... keke....

now controlling water intake... hope it get better or else haha jialat liao loh.....