last night met up with grace for coffee, lend her my love and death book... and chat... and we talk about relationships...
then the topic of the gf mentioning other guys in front of her bf comes up... remind me of a incident that happen to me long long time ago...
that time a few years back, an ex of mine... quite close with her... at times will go to her place stay thru out the day as her parents always not at home...
that day she told me she want to drink.. so i bought 2 bottles of e33 i think to her place.
she kept on talking about this guy she knew the day before and wat they chatted on icq... saying he drove, he got car, he got a high pay job etc...
and that guy called up to her and talked... lying on her parent bed, rolling around talk... totally ignore me...
freak i felt so useless....
then i took that bottle of mine, and hoon ki go inside her parent room bathroom... cover up the toilet seat i sit down light up my hoon ki...
take a deep puff...
open up that e33...
drink as i smoke...
the chatting outside continues.... and the laughter getting louder....
close my eyes... i cried... i cried and cried... eyes close... dunno why...
think she heard me... she put down the phone come to the bathroom find me... ask me wat happen...
i say nothing.. asking her go away...
she say dun like that... hugs me and cried with me...
she say sorry... never care about my feelings...
yeah basically like that ba...
those memories haunts me...