i am thinking either to show her all these that i wrote. all these things i done. and destroy my good image in front of her. wanna to let her really knows how i really feels. maybe i am childish. may i am too sensative. but she dun understands how i really feeling now. does she really dun like feeling to hold my hand coz she think it is too sweaty? does she really thinks i am too lousy to let ppl knows that we are couple? am i that underground? how come she dun feel happy at all all these while? i put our pic in icq and friendster, she like not so happy. why? i know i have too many unhappiness about her all these while, but i dun wan to say it out. the thing about her and that guy maybe true, but i close my eyes on it. just treat it as a rumor. i am even willing to forgive her if she turn back to me. but no, she din, she post those topic there. wat is the meaning fo this? I know online stuffs I should not have treat it so serious, but does she knows she knows how much she really meant to me?
she meant the world to me. i willing to give up everything just to be with her. why she din?
I am just a ordinary guy. I am not some strong minded guy that can take all these.
Why dun she just say she love me too?
Am I dun deserve someone to love?